I was thinking about the ten commandments and how I've broken 9 out of 10 laws, which I thought was pretty good all things considered when God laid it on my heart that in the spirit of the Law, I've broken all 10 of them. And I'm thinking to myself, I've never murdered anyone. And to which God responded, "But you have thought maliciously against your brother haven't you?" To which I had to respond, "yes."

To think about the law in the spirit in which it is intended is harsh. To realize that you are no better than the thief and murderer crucified with Jesus. To think that my thoughts carry just as much weight as action is truly a heavy responsibility. Nothing I write is new information nor a new thought, but one that has been reiterated time and again in the bible. It gives me an incentive to guard my heart in every thing I say and do. It tells me not to let my thoughts stray from that which is holy and righteous. To entertain evil is the same thing as action on that thought. It says a lot about the moral compass we are to exhibit to the outside world in thought, action, and deed.

I am a sinner and have broken every law of God set before us. For that I am condemned as a sinner to death and separation from God. But because I have confessed with my lips, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in my heart, I shall be saved from the disparaging gruesomeness of the pit. If I have sinned against any of my fellow brothers or sisters in faith, I am truly sorry and I'm willing to make any amends necessary and ask for forgiveness. Forgive me becuase of my selfishness, arrogance and prideful actions.

Help me to become a stronger person in faith. Help me to break the chains that have held me captive for so long in my life. I need to find a partner of accountability in the area of pornography, since I'm a guy after all. Help me to live a righteous life and renew my faith as in days past.


Jim Brank